life

dark

six summers passed
i’m still in the same place
where I could remember
what exactly I dreamt.
but things aren’t the same
as how it was in the past,
it’s like the flowers
i desired to pluck when I was 18,
now my heart doesn’t want
to do the same.
deep inside I want to
listen to soft melodies,
but I end up listening to
a playlist full of darkness.
this instant
this sense of emotions,
it’s like I’m constantly living in a dream
shrouded with uncanny thoughts,
i can’t go past
i can’t catch the future ahead,
it’s today, it’s when I’m penning my thoughts
that i feel alive,
but why is it so painful
oscillating between things
which isn’t in our control,
there’s no such thing
like genie’s lamp
or time machine
to grant a wish
or to go and change anything,
life
sometimes it feels so uncomplicated
like making paper boats,
or sometimes it feels so rigid
like watching it sink.
but in the process of worrying
overthinking
dwelling
i just realized
today
i survived
one more summer.

~thahira

~a flow

I wanted to share so many things for a long time, but I strived with where to begin or how to end it and still do.
I don’t remember when was the last time I looked at the sky and smiled happily but in my memory each day I’m seeing myself watching the sky and admiring wholeheartedly.
And sometimes when I think about what will happen next, I won’t lie. I’m scared and my eyes show fear as if I’m falling from the sky.
You know, how pleasant it is that you know you are fantasizing about everything around you yet it’s not a big deal. Because it is something that gives you happiness killing away the sadness.


I feel surviving these days itself is like a cherry cake added with barriers and hope. To taste and keep moving on is what I’m doing and that’s how the year started.

@Thahira

Seeking and Evolving

I crave thousands of things in a day, knowing that it can’t happen in real.  I look at the freshly bloomed flower and think of the day when I would be that flower showering happiness around me. I stand solitary staring at the waves, imagining how it comes back and forth. Likewise, my thoughts which are not steady and struggling. I wish to become colors, I wish to become a rainbow but reality doesn’t exist in my dictionary. But no period is constant.

I always wonder how everything unique happens at the same time in the universe. How we are bound by many things, but we all experience different moments. Sometimes, the space in my mind holds so many mysteries unrevealed, and it just doesn’t want to be revealed. That 10-year-old me, who thought of becoming something, she’s not the same anymore. And that’s when you discover what’s reality is.

Every bit of possibilities changes, like how the moon changes its shape, yet it becomes full one day. Maybe that’s how we are, we become something one day grabbing the right moment. And that’s how maybe life is, there is nothing constant, there is nothing that could stop you from seeking and evolving.

And I’m here, a normal being painting my space
seeking and evolving…

©Thahira

Oscillating between knowns and unknowns

There’s a gloomy song
floating in my mind,
penetrating my thoughts
by creating a syndrome
to affect my heart
just when the song was about to end
it turned blue
and the world I see
looks upside down,
and you know what
i’m daydreaming,
just when
i’m completely drowned in it
ammi calls for help
to save the curry in the stove
from getting burnt
I was about to turn down the heat,
but it’s too late
too late that everything around is static
the unpleasant odor hit my nose
and I was awake
hearing my ammi’s tantrums,
everything doesn’t happen without mistakes
every day we get new experiences
our life is a tricky ocean
it’s vast and has
beautiful endings,
when death remains a mystery
we live solving our aliveness
we continue oscillating between
knowns and unknowns
till the world stops,
we do pass our day
working, laughing, dreaming
in spite of how much we feel raging inside
we do oscillate
and the song again
floats in my mind
and I daydream again
and hear ammi’s tantrums
maybe these all have an end
or may not
but still, we continue to dwindle or thrive
we oscillate
that’s why we exist!

Ps : ‘Starry Night’ is something very much special in my life, just gave a try using color pencils. 💫

©Thahira

My feelings

“My feelings!
You are a purple haze
I fear,
You will blow me away
From when did you trounce my soul?
I try to run away from you
But you locked me in the dark cage
You showed me the bunch of keys
Named each one differently
You asked me to pick one,
I shrugged fiercely
To choose the right one,
For I had always lived in dilemma,
Am I falling in love?
Or it’s just an attraction,
My feelings!
Show me the right key?
To open my heart which you have caged,
It’s hurting
Deep inside
Like Cactus piercing my flesh
I won’t resist
That you don’t exist
I smile
To hide you
But you find me
To seek you
Yes I’m here
Exhausted
Worn out
But still fighting with you,
Now stop playing with me
Show me mercy
Show me the right key!”

©Thahira

Welcome all!

Hello everyone, this is Thahira
I’m a learner and an ardent art lover who always crave for poetry and philosophy

Touching the sky above with words and feeling the rain in verses and living the life in poetries. Reading the thoughts in paragraphs, scribbling down the mysteries untangled. Everything and all are words that we spill in the end.

I’m penning down all of my heart here, Happy reading!

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